Changes

Tomorrow almost everything that I know will come to an end. Many of the things that have defined me. Over. I'm no longer a homeschooling mom. Military wife? Over.

There's not a new assignment - there's not the excitement of a new base. New friends or leaving old friends. Around the corner really hasn't even been defined. Yet. Or, more correctly...that I can see.

I would have never imagined that I would be standing in this spot so scared. Have I walked with the Lord this long and am so immature in my faith? My head says one thing...my heart says another.

But here I am. What do others do in this spot who don't have a Savior? Where do they find hope? I feel sorry for them. I feel sorry, pity and prayer for that young man last night who thinks that he must literally pay for all of the sins of his crusading ancestors...and after doing all those things still believes his only destiny is hell.

For tho a righteous man falls down seven times, he rises again. falling. again. but I can't lay there. I must get up. There's a reason I still breathe. There is purpose, destiny and future...even tho I cannot see it...I must embrace it. Even if I do it afraid.